Focusing too much on the outcome instead of enjoying the process

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Over the past few years, I’ve set some goals for myself, when it comes to creative projects.

My number one objective is to get some happiness from creating again.

I look at my desk, my camera, my instruments, and it’s just too much. I already know I won’t be able to make something as good as I want it to be. I have no idea when it started. I don’t know why. I think I’ve always been a perfectionist. But I feel like it’s reached the next level. The level where I stop myself from creating anything. And I’ve been thinking: do I focus too much on the outcome? It feels like everything we do, as artists, has to be amazing. That’s how I feel, and that’s how I usually get stuck.

It’s like I don’t even enjoy the process anymore. What only seems to matter is the outcome. The process is what’s supposed to be fun! That’s where I get to be creative, scrappy and allow myself to explore things.

Yes, I want to create something that has meaning, that looks great and well thought. I want the shots to look purposeful, with beautiful lighting. I want the music to speak to me, I want it to have the right rhythm and help deliver the story. I want to be proud of the outcome. But right now, all of that is getting in the way. My pursuit of a great outcome is stopping me from starting anything.

I lost my sense of play.

I want it back.

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Writing every day, looking back every month

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In the past few weeks, I’ve picked up journaling. I’m trying to do it every day. It’s not always easy, but it feels good. I find it freeing.

Even though I am writing the analog way, in a Moleskine notebook, I like typing on a keyboard. I’ve finally decided to buy a mechanical keyboard to go with my Mac Mini (with an M2 Pro!). I picked a Keychron K2 v2, with brown switches.

A Keychron K2 v2, a mechanical keyboard

It just feels nice to type on a nice keyboard. I know it’s not going to make me write more video scripts, or more blog posts, but it just makes it an enjoyable experience. And I want to focus on nice things a bit more, the little bits that make you happier during the week.

So while I’m attempting to keep up with journaling every day, I want to look back once a month, on how that month felt, what happened, what I’ve tried, what I am looking forward to. I think it’s a good exercise.

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Chewbacca makes synthwave (new music video!)

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It’s been a while since I have released music, or a video, let alone be both!

I’ve been working on something for a while now, trying to get back into creating more regularly – starting by iterating on something I like: synthwave / retrowave music 🙂

I put on my Chewbacca onesie and started playing some music. What I had in mind was something like:

Sitting in the cockpit of a spaceship, just cruising through a nebula. It’s the middle of the night, it’s nice and quiet, but so pretty outside. Feels like flying through mellow, lush, chill dreams

Here’s the video:

Some inspirations:

Made with:

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Being versus doing

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Lately, I have been trying to be more intentional about focusing on being, rather than doing.

Be somewhere and absorb what’s happening. Sit, have a drink, just watch people go by. Listen to the river.

It’s okay if I don’t tick all the boxes on the travel guide, if I don’t finish that music track over the weekend or film stuff. Sometimes, part of me feels like I should always be doing something. But if I want to recharge my creative batteries, I need to allow myself to be. Go places. Meet people. Without agenda or todo list.

I’m just writing this down here so I don’t forget.

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