Lately, I have been trying to be more intentional about focusing on being, rather than doing.
Be somewhere and absorb what’s happening. Sit, have a drink, just watch people go by. Listen to the river.
It’s okay if I don’t tick all the boxes on the travel guide, if I don’t finish that music track over the weekend or film stuff. Sometimes, part of me feels like I should always be doing something. But if I want to recharge my creative batteries, I need to allow myself to be. Go places. Meet people. Without agenda or todo list.
I’m just writing this down here so I don’t forget.
This is one of the things I am grateful for this week: my terrarium survived 365 days!
Between its creation on 15/06/2021 – during a terrarium making workshop over Zoom – and now, I have had a few hiccups . Unfortunately, one day I had to amputate part of it, as some of the plants were dying. I am not sure what happened. Did I put too much water or too little? Did I expose it to direct sunlight? Not sure, but I had to remove the unlucky plants before they started decomposing. Otherwise it would have risked the entire ecosystem.
Honestly I am quite surprised. Every pot of herbs I buy ends up dead within a few weeks, and a terrarium seems orders of magnitude more complicated. But, on the other hand, I managed to get a baby lemon tree out of one seed, so what do you know?
I think it’s all tropical plants, so I didn’t think it was going to last long in London, but so far so good! To celebrate, I put it’s original birth date on the jar using my label maker.
This might not be very creative per se, but there is a certain beauty in arranging life in a jar and watching it do its thing. Somehow it always goes in a different direction from what I originally intended. Actually, it feels quite similar to what happens when I make music!
Anyway, it brings me joy that I found a spot for it in my living room. I guess styling the place is some form of creative act. I think it contributes to me being inspired sometimes.
As I’m getting back into making music – and creating stuff in general – I find myself struggling with finding ideas, telling a story, getting past the finish line.
There’s probably something I am doing wrong here. There is so much I want to accomplish, and a lot I don’t know exactly how to do. Without fully knowing where I’m going, it can feel a bit daunting when I’m still not back at 100% of my energy levels.
So I’m leaning into what I know inspires me. I’m rediscovering what I’ve loved doing in the past, what I still enjoy experiencing today.
So for the next few weeks, I am going to try having fun, and avoid caring about making the best stuff possible. And the one thing that gives me energy at the moment is synthwave 🙂 There’s something to it, a formula, a pattern, a familiarity that feels like the music is hugging me. I know it’s weird.